[At first he didn't use the network at all. He didn't dare. Couldn't. He was angry, unsettled, in discomfort and...afraid. So very afraid, really. Lucius doesn't like losing control over the one thing that he should always be in absolute command over: himself.
The strange conversation between the Fourth and the Fog he witnessed doesn't really help either. He knows it means his side is growing stronger but he almost doesn't care. It hardly negates the violation he feels.
As the days pass though and the shock fades he realizes that he feels, oddly, better. More confident and relaxed than he has for some time. The interactions in his dreamscape - though he doesn't know about them - were mostly positive, which was kind to his mental state. The things that he experienced firsthand though inside other people's minds...
He has to wait until he feels he has better control on himself before he can at last send this message. He uses the communicator directly because typing it out gives him a better chance to consider his words.
He doesn't go to the Arcade. Even though by now he's starting to get hungry.]
I don't mean to be impertinent or ungrateful. So, please forgive me. However I do wish to be honest and I am having a difficult time with what has happened to me. With what you did to us.
Why did you do it? I know you must have had your reasons but I confess I don't understand. The element of surprise must have been key, of course. But couldn't you have at least warned your followers, or asked for our permission?
I am not often in the habit of being candid or unrestrained in my thoughts and emotions on my best of days. To have had strangers interacting with my insides like that, to know they must have seen things even though I don't know what, I must say that right now I feel as if I
As if I have been violated, in my spirit and mind.
And I don't know what I am going to say when next I see any of those that I swore to that you were trustworthy. I could lose face with so many people, and it's frustrating to think you're acting as if you haven't considered any of this at all.
backdated to a few days after Pieces of Heart
The strange conversation between the Fourth and the Fog he witnessed doesn't really help either. He knows it means his side is growing stronger but he almost doesn't care. It hardly negates the violation he feels.
As the days pass though and the shock fades he realizes that he feels, oddly, better. More confident and relaxed than he has for some time. The interactions in his dreamscape - though he doesn't know about them - were mostly positive, which was kind to his mental state. The things that he experienced firsthand though inside other people's minds...
He has to wait until he feels he has better control on himself before he can at last send this message. He uses the communicator directly because typing it out gives him a better chance to consider his words.
He doesn't go to the Arcade. Even though by now he's starting to get hungry.]
I don't mean to be impertinent or ungrateful. So, please forgive me. However I do wish to be honest and I am having a difficult time with what has happened to me. With what you did to us.
Why did you do it? I know you must have had your reasons but I confess I don't understand. The element of surprise must have been key, of course. But couldn't you have at least warned your followers, or asked for our permission?
I am not often in the habit of being candid or unrestrained in my thoughts and emotions on my best of days. To have had strangers interacting with my insides like that, to know they must have seen things even though I don't know what, I must say that right now I feel as if I
As if I have been violated, in my spirit and mind.
And I don't know what I am going to say when next I see any of those that I swore to that you were trustworthy. I could lose face with so many people, and it's frustrating to think you're acting as if you haven't considered any of this at all.